till when must this carry on? i dont want to ruin everything by telling you how i feel.or maybe im just low in confidence.when you say "i love you",what does that even mean? i dont know the meaning of it anymore.i've met alot of girls who just say that and they dont really mean it.it sucks being in this kind of situation AGAIN.i've been through this alot of times and i always end up losing.maybe its just an infatuation.NO! im sure about this.but...still....i dont want this! its going to ruin everything.our friendship,its going to go down to the ground if i tell you."everything starts from friendship!" yeah! like that helps! pffft! maybe i dont want it or maybe im just waiting for a clear,obvious signs that you really do love me? im confused now...thinking makes me headache.

but whatever it is....I do LOVE you with all my heart.im just not sure about where are we suppose to go from here.thats all.....but i hope someday,theres a sign that will answer my questions.Hope.....




P.S:The sweetest words which i try not to use on someone i love: "I am jealous of the people you ever hugged because for a moment,they held my entire world."